Monday, October 3, 2011

Grateful Gertie


Doesn't Gertie sound like the name of someone who could be your favorite aunt? I need to invite her over more often. At least the Grateful part.

Thank you for your support, it really does get me through. I tried to respond to each of you, but some of you don't leave behind an email trail...just know I'm extremely grateful to each of you for your words of encouragement.

So we've established that lately I've gotten especially good at laying around, directing affairs from from the couch/bed, and generally being a lump. In fact if one could get paid for this, I'm sure I'd be somewhere in the six figures range...I'm that good.

In the beginning, I was able to go shopping and plan menus in my head... at least in the morning. Then dinner time would roll around and the not taking of pain management materials (in order to be able to be mom-ly ish) would catch up to me. I was spent, my focus lost, and emergency calls were made to Mr. O and take-out was brought in.

The poor children. Poor Mr. O. Perfectly good fixings were in the fridge and yet I think I managed only one cooked meal per week these past 2 months (and that's being generous); some of those even came out of bags in the freezer or boxes in the pantry (yes, Kraft dinner) but! they were made at home so that sort of counts, right? Right?! But mostly the meat and veggies purchased with Monday Morning's Optimism were left to become Sunday's Stash of Stench and Stank.

I felt so guilty about it (the complete waste and stinking mess) that I would stealthily freeze the rotten meat so we wouldn't completely offend our neighbors and then put them in the garbage under cover of darkness for Monday's pick-up. Wash. Lather. Rinse. Repeat.

I suck. I know. The first step is acceptance. Right? Also, I've stopped grocery shopping altogether. As far as I know, cold cereal and frozen pizza never killed anyone.

Just a handful of some of the things it takes to keep me somewhat functioning. Those yellow pills are what is keeping me from chucking myself in the green garbage bins for a Monday morning pick-up myself. The doctor has now doubled my dose in an effort to calm the nerve to my middle ear the freak down. Cross your fingers that it works.

I did manage to make two birthday cakes of freaking awesome: See also Zucchini Chocolate Cake.

AND! My sister and a friend were my designated drivers for two days of redecorating madness.

We sold the green beast to a sorority girl who was so cute and tiny I want to adopt her or at least keep her in my pocket. We also sold the tapestry clam-shell chairs and started with a clean slate. Want to know the secret for selling on ksl.com or craigslist? List the price as $0 and say make me an offer. We sold everything for the price we originally had in mind, but didn't get a single call until we listed the price as "make me an offer".


I am in love. This room feels comfortable even though it is a complete switch for me. I am not a person who likes blue. At all. So I guess I've been converted. I have never made decorating decisions so quickly, but it helps to have someone along with an eye for potential. The only thing left is to figure out is the ottoman. Could I maybe tackle recovering the existing beat-up ottoman? What do I have to lose?
Things seem to be getting better in the pain department, but it is hard to know if we are covering up a problem or solving it. I'll keep you posted. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to rip out the rest of the garden with this week's batch of Monday Morning's Optimism.

13 comments:

radioactive girl said...

I am glad you are feeling (sort of) better.

I think frozen pizza/mac and cheese is just fine. That's what I'm doing lately too because I can not seem to catch up and when I am home and have a second, cooking is not really what I want to do.

Kristina P. said...

I really love the sea green/blue. Very calming.

whitneyingram said...

Blue is calming and relaxing, so it's probably a good idea for this time in your life.

My husband has dealt with chronic pain for years with his feet. At the moment, things are comfortable for him. But in the past, we (and I mean we) have been through hell with it. Pain medication and it's withdrawls were boatloads of fun.

M-Cat said...

I am hoping it is helping and not masking something. Not a fan of blue either, but I do hear that according to feng shui or some other crap like that,that it is soothing and good for the soul.

That's why sometimes I just go lay in my Yankee room

Emily said...

Pizza, cold cereal, Eggo waffles, Kraft mac & cheese--none of these things ever killed anyone. Go for it.

Love the blue.

Tebbs Family said...

LOVE the room--blue looks fantastic! Your honest feelings and expressions are still inspiring. Hope you continue to feel better and hopeful with time...

Anonymous said...

i'm not even sick and i will go days without making dinner with something i bought that week only to have it rot in the fridge. only i don't care what the neighbors think, i care what my husband will think about more wasted food (wasting food is the number one sin for the frenchman). i admire that you even have a garden! i think you're being too hard on yourself.

athena

Emma J said...

Oh, lovely lovely room! It looks like a good place to become whole again in. Hope it works its magic.

(And I stand ready to read over anything you may want read . . . )

Geoffrey said...

I find it humorous that you could be making 6 figures from the couch. I have been making 6 figures since my teen years... and the decimal is ever so slowly making it's way right. I now have 3 digits in front...

Mrs. Organic said...

Geoff - you crack me up!

Toni said...

Your strength and optimism and inspiring! I hope things continue to improve!

Up in Bubbles said...

Love your couch and all the blue. The room is really coming together.

Omgirl said...

I love your redecoration! I am in love with blue right now. not all shades. But I recently painted my kitchen a sort of robin's egg blue, and I'm so digging it. Blue is the new beige!

p.s. I'm going to think really hard of a good freezer meal I can bring you besides lasagna (it's just so unoriginal). When i do, your family will get something besides pizza and mac n cheese (which never killed anyone, you're right).